R is for...


This is me attempting a little Yin-Yang Thang. 

Hey. I tried.

It's an interesting thought to think: I was an Infinite Possibility in the Mind of God. I showed up. Now, I am an Infinite Possibility in My Own Mind. Of course, still an extension in the Mind of God. But that was a time of incubation. Now, freewill abounds. 

Decisions. Decisions. Decisions. Or better put: Creations. Creations. Creations.

My oldest gave me an early Christmas gift. A meditation chair. It has made my meditation feel even holier than usual. Maybe it's just the acknowledgment. She is seeing me differently than when I first began my mystical journey. I've always been on it. I was just not as open as I am now. I'm not caring like I had in the past of what others might think. And I've become more gentle. Lesser critical version of my Virgo self. Though, I have my moments those moments no longer have me. I'm not a hostage anymore. Now, I've a clear sense of feeling what I feel and why and discard any old conditioning to numb them and pretend they don't exist. This is huge for me. It truly is an act of living in the moment. 

I read my last blog and just had to apologize to myself for leaving the Now. I was viscerally reliving a very old conversation with a man who probably doesn't even remember it or would fight me on its accuracy. Though not stated, I was projecting failure of having not taken care of grandma myself. Deep in the memory of seeing her after so long and...

Just feel it. Witness it. Release it.

There is nothing like Faith. A belief in the Higher Good. It knows what It's doing. It knows my desires. It knows the intricate weaving of healing I have entrusted to Its loom. 

In my meditation, I asked for harmony and balance. To place my heart at the center of my Soul. The Universe, in no small way, answered. The answer was: Andi can't come to the phone right now. 

I woke to watch the sunrise. Gorgeous. There were hues of orange and purples intermingled among the cloudscape that merged into the light leaving only the strata behind. 

A New Day. 

Full of Possibilities. 

Full with Me.