re: volutions

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The Following From: Raoul Vaneigem, The Revolution of Everyday Life via my Freewill.

You know about the Russian physiologist Ivan Pavlov, who discovered the conditioned reflex. In his famous experiment, he trained laboratory dogs to salivate at the sound of a bell. You may not have heard, though, about the story's surprise ending. The dogs were programmed for weeks with such rigor that their behavior became as predictable as machines. Then one day a flood inundated the lab. In the confusion, the dogs forgot all their training instantly.


If I Could

If I could change the world:

I would be the sunlight in your Universe:

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You would think my love was really something good:

Baby if I could...change the world:


Ed Meet Joe, Joe Meet Ed

Sometimes it's necessary to go a long distance out of the way in order to come back a short distance correctly. ~Edward Albee

I love my life. I love what it is now. I love that I stumbled around and bumped into fears, tears and seers. I am happy that I said yes when I was offered places to go and people to see. I never had any real idea what I was looking for besides joy...looking, looking, looking...outward.

Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors where there were only walls. ~Joseph Campbell

I love that the walls parted and the doors led inward. I love the overwhelming appreciation I feel for every single thing I'm seeing, feeling and being. I have found joy in everything that is going 'right' and everything going 'not-so-right' in my life (...ah, no such thing).

People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person. ~Anon

I love everyone whom I've bumped into, ran over, or held onto while embracing this journey. I was not always present to their path because I was learning how to joyfully follow my own. Because of that, some have fallen away, others are more insistent of my attention and, yet, others totally get me. But I love them all, regardless, and wish them their wildest dreams. There is nothing light in my knowing how very important they were in making this moment in Now possible for me.* I wish to put my gratitude into words...but I am simply unable.

I accept that honest failure as there are no words only my honest feelings...yet, I still wish they could truly know...

...though, I think my dog has an idea.

* I also love how this blog reads like an acceptance speech...perhaps, more accurately, a self-acceptance speech. :)


Tell It Well

We practice the Art of Allowing. Which means reaching for the thought that feels best, not the thought that is the real thought, not the thought that is telling it like it is. Telling it like it is only holds you where it is: "Damn it, I'm going to tell it like it is. I'm going to tell it like it is, because everybody wants me to tell it like it is."

Tell it like it is if you like it like it is. But if you don't like it like it is, then don't tell it like it is--tell it like you want it to be. If you tell it like you want it to be, long enough, you will begin to feel it like you want it to be, and when you feel it like you want it to be, it be's like you want it to be.
-- LOA

This is the simplest definition of visualization I know of besides: See it, feel it, be it. Who said it, I haven't a clue.* Maybe I threw in the feel it because without the emotional connection you can't know if you're actually creating in the direction you want. I'm being tested. More accurately, in the last 24 hours, I have been given a very large dose of contrast -- the 'to know what you want is to know what you don't want' and in the contrast the heavy vibe of 'this is how it is' was clearly imposed. I don't have to be specific. Being too specific may empower that vibe and I am allowing something more generously loving...a lightening of that vibe. And if I can get really creative enough in my pretending, a complete purging. So, soon after this post, I'll sit with pen in hand and tell myself a very uplifting story of how this contrast will serve me. I will not just tell myself, I will feel myself in it while my mind's eye sees it.

Though I took it personally, I thought about today's quote of advice in more grander terms, too. Though nowhere near an ocean, my metaphorical hands joined in holding hope for change when it comes to the practices of drilling near and off-shore. Marianne Williamson suggested that we have a minute of silence each day at noon for a miracle in the Gulf. A collective meditation for
something to happen. I've great admiration for her and so many like her. When I read that, it created in me a desire to personalize her thought: And in that one minute, I will quietly visualize a prayer for inspired human action. The miracle of God moving through people.

I've been raised believing that God works through people. With what has gone down in our southern waters, one might argue the devil does, too. For me, all of life is Love but there are pockets of places, faces and traces where the cutting of corners caused Love to get hacked. Had Love made the cut -- compassionate preparatory choices of 'what if's' or 'should we's' in relation to others-- the consequences of actions would not be nearly so devastating. Some will blame power. Some will blame greed. I see it as man's disconnection with himself and his fellow man. The kind of connection I'm visualizing oozes with compassion...not oil.

Ironically, and as an aside, there is a power outside of ourselves that we have the ability to greedily consume.
Ask yourself: What is our most dependable natural resource? The Sun. Seriously, if it ever goes out, will anything else really matter?

I just revised the worst sentence I have ever written in my life. The asterisk is for my benefit only. A reminder. A gentle one. :)


Into Being

In summer, the song sings itself. ~William Carlos Williams


Just Do It

Find your own pace

Pull ahead

Wear the breathable strength
of your own authenticity

Be fueled
by the loving desire
to meet Yourself
at the finish-line


My Time to Align

If you've been aligned with cosmic rhythms these past few weeks, Virgo, you've been rising higher and feeling bolder. You've taken a stand on issues about which you had previously been a bit weak and cowardly. You have been able to articulate elusive or difficult truths in graceful ways that haven't caused too terrible a ruckus. Your next challenge is to rally the troops. The group that means the most to you is in need of your motivational fervor. I suggest that you think deeply about how to cultivate more dynamic relationships among all the parts,

thereby energizing the whole.
-- Yep!


Dissolution Is An Illusion

You will throughout your life experience situations and circumstances that hold the seed for fear, do not allow yourself one moment to be victimized. For when you encounter that which holds the seeds of fear, it is an indicator that you need to stoke the fires of your own self love. Love conquers all. It takes that which on human accounts would be failure or terrible and transforms it into a powerful statement that fear and its master is only an illusion. Light does not necessarily change the obstacles of your path, but it gives you the ability to see your way around them. Speak your self-love in conviction, enthusiasm and zeal. Hold the light of self-love high above that all whom you encounter will bask in. -- Ships of Song

I've never felt the deep feelings of failure (Is that what I'm feeling?) until now. That's not to say life has been full of victory but I've learned to cope with what others perceive as great disappointment finding life's ups and downs more of an appointment towards some greater good. Still, even under the best circumstances (and ours are excellent), divorce feels like nothing I've experienced before in my entire life. I think any form of disconnection from another person is disconnection from Who-We-Really-Are or Your Personal Truth which is You Are Love. And if you have tied your happiness to another without first grounding yourself in self-love that disconnection can be devastating. Had I attempted this at any other point in my life, I would be devastated.

I met with my lawyers alone at the courthouse today. That felt right. My friend, with my blessing (not that it was required nor should anyone I care for feel bound by my approval), has moved on. "They" say:
If you really love someone you want their happiness even if it isn't with you. I want his happiness and I do love him. This love that remains keeps me connected to him. More importantly, it keeps me connected to Me.


High Noon

3 days 15 hours 3 minutes 7 seconds =

313,387 seconds =

5223 minutes =

87 hours =

Into The Future.

Happiness Is Closer Than It Appears

Red Truck Passing

Happiness: Why are you crying?

Confusion: I don't know.

Happiness: Are you sad?

Confusion: Not exactly.

Happiness: Mad?

Confusion: No. Not at all.

Happiness: I know.

Confusion: You do?

Happiness: Yeah. Remember that time I rode that roller coaster with you?

Confusion: The grown-up one?

Happiness: Yeah. Remember at the end how I cried? I was so glad it was over.

Confusion: You felt relief.

Happiness: Yeah. But what's that other word you like to use?

Confusion: You mean, gratitude?

Happiness: Yeah. Gratitude. That's why you're crying.


Would You Repeat That Offer Back to Me, Please?

What are you waiting for, my dear Virgo? Your future power spot has been exerting a strong pull on you. It has been calling for you to come and seize the clout you deserve. But you have not yet fully taken up the offer. As your designated nag and cheerleader, it is my sacred duty to wave a red flag in front of your gorgeous face and command you to pay attention. In my opinion, you need to drop what you're doing, race over to the zone of engagement, and pounce. You're more than ready to stake a claim to the increased authority you'll have a mandate to wield in the coming months. -- Yeah, Him Again

I'll Take...


My Hand Made

"...You are eternal, infinite. You are subject to the same laws of creation as energy. You cannot be created or destroyed, only changed.

Your soul cannot be added to or detracted from; you always were and you shall always be.

Your soul is the parent and your Consciousness is an excellent handmaiden to the your "child" in physical form.

Your self awareness is the child born of Consciousness." --Ships of Song


Untitled (but now, Aquatic Rainbow)

I can't decide on a title for this photo. Here are a few I am toying with: Diving Deep. Over My Head. Don't Hold Your Breath. Immersion (the front runner). Submersed. Aquatic Rainbow. Wait! I kinda like that last one. Ah, decisions.

I am engaging in cerebral looping that has me believing that I am making more and more difficult decisions on my own. As I filter through this mind-field of what is me and not me, I'm almost tip-toeing with uncertainty. I'm practicing more positive thoughts but, being human, I have an urge to stop in my tracks and not move at all. But having stepped out of one huge explosion of change still resembling myself, I'll keep moving forward.

I chose Aquatic Rainbow as the title because the others were reflecting these feelings of being overwhelmed. It may not be a great title but it's a happier title. And that kind of blissful cerebral looping will get me safely to the other side where I plan to find myself fully intact. *

How skilled are you at getting things done and making things happen? This is different from just being busy; it's not the same as scrambling around attending to whatever tasks are at the forefront of your attention. I'm talking about actually cranking out excellent results that manifest a comprehensive vision of your intentions. I'm talking about working hard and smart to serve the big picture, not working frenetically and mechanically to rid yourself of nervous mental energy. You're in a phase when these themes are especially important, Virgo. Be a master of the details; don't let the details master you. -- Rob

* I couldn't help myself. :)