No Excuses

Tell everyone you know: "My happiness depends on me, so you're off the hook." And then demonstrate it. Be happy, no matter what they're doing. Practice feeling good, no matter what. And before you know it, you will not give anyone else responsibility for the way you feel—and then, you'll love them all. Because the only reason you don't love them, is because you're using them as your excuse to not feel good. ~Abraham Hicks

I love to people watch but sometimes I forget to watch myself. Luckily, with as many daughters as I have, mirrors are everywhere. The other day, I caught a glimpse of myself falling prey to maliciousness. And, trust me, there is nothing I respond to more quickly that someone putting up a boundary of judgment. Yes. Sad Face. It comes from years of judging myself. With a propensity as a perfectionist, imagine how often I have felt failure.

I watched myself surrender a doorway for another to come in and manipulate and expose apart of my private life publicly. It was scandalous...well, no sex, no drugs...wow...not even a little rock-n-roll was involved...perhaps scandalous is an exaggeration but the manipulation was epically tabloidian in nature. It left me with very confused feelings. Not about the other person but about myself. I had a moment of self-doubt about all this professed surrendering.

I spoke of it in the last blog, writing, of how with each effort to do that, the higher good is served. Well, turns out my "truth" prevailed. Being a private person, the Universe saw fit to offer up revelations about my relationship with this person that I am not readily inclined to share. Because I know we each create our own reality, what will come back to me for refinement is the cause of creating a space to surrender the doorway in the first place.

Ah, the journey.

Beyond the love and support of so many who felt the injustice of what went down, I felt the joy. I felt the wonderment of the big picture as I could literally see the unfolding*. I felt the love of a massive Universe saying, We Got This. I'm trusting in happiness by learning to surrender to it.

Yes, that person blessed me. They're off the hook.



* The scandal had to do with daughters, laundry & excess so everyone else could see the 'unfolding', too. Giggle.

I love my life.

UPDATE:
"Because I know we each create our own reality, what will come back to me for refinement is the cause of creating a space to surrender the doorway in the first place." ...so soon? Round 2....or is this 3...maybe 4....doesn't matter. What matters is my happiness.